Okay, so this is not the kind of post I expected to put up today. But, for the benefit of those of you going through weight loss and healthy living journeys I’m putting this out there…
Last night I was working with a pharmacist who I hadn’t seen in a while. We were discussing things totally unrelated to weight/health/exercise… Then, she notices that there is a photo of my husband and I on my computer’s desktop. (See below)
Pharmacist: ”Oh, is that you and your husband?”
Pharmacist: ”You were at Medieval Times. That is a fun place.”
Me: ”We enjoyed it.”
Pharmacist: (Looks at me and back at the computer screen) ”You look… different.”
Me: (joking) “Umm.. I’m not wearing scrubs a cleanroom gown, mask and bonnet?”
Pharmacist: “Were you thinner then?” ”Your face looks different.”
Me: (Did she seriously just say that..?) “Oh. Yeah, a little… ahem.. ahh… (pushing through the embarrassment and focusing on the opportunity to segue into a discussion about exercise…) ”I actually just started a new workout program called Turbo Fire.”
Pharmacist: “Oh, well, you’re not that overweight.”
Me: “Ummm… Well, uhhh… I really like this exercise program. It’s made by Beachbody - the same company that put out P90X. I’m working on losing it.”……..
Pharmacist: (Finally realizing she’s made me uncomfortable..) (Looking back at the computer screen) ”So.. where is your husband from?”
Okay, so… I try not to be too sensitive about issues surrounding weight. Generally, I try not to take things too personally. She made a faux-pas but didn’t mean it to be hurtful. It surprised me that I had an emotional reaction to her comment. That little punch in the gut. I knew I had gained some weight back over the past year but no one had called me out on it. I have been working for a month now to get it (and more) off and have come down 5 lbs. But, it’s not all off yet (I gained around 10). And, I guess 5 lbs on a 5’ 0” frame is a lot and didn’t just settle on my hips. I really didn’t think it was that noticeable…
It’s nice when people comment about your weight loss, not so nice when they comment about a gain (especially when you have already lost some…). I am not going to hold this against her… will just use it as motivation to keep pushing. It’s really not an awful thing that she called me on it - it’s not comfortable but it was the truth. It’s good to realize that people do see you - every day. They do notice when you gain/lose.. It’s rude to judge someone about their weight but it’s also just a fact of life - a matter of health and how you appear to the world. Just like my nose is a little off-center and I can’t do anything about that (without a lot of $ and pain..).
BUT I CAN do something about the weight! I could have handled the discussion better - might have been able to roll it right into a Beachbody discussion but I was a little choked.. Hopefully next time the conversation will be “You look different… are you thinner NOW?” :)
Medieval Times (Aug 2010)